CPS free and the current Aftermaths

Hey everyone, it's been some time again with very little word from me about how things are.

As of July 31st the CPS nightmare has concluded. We have gone through lots of emotional therapy with Lily, lots of "talks" and just blah. Without going into a stupid amount of drama detail when it all came to an end all I can say it was 7 months of teenage bullshit. Going with all her ups and downs, watching her change her stories every time BS was called. I truly believe it was just a long extensive abuse of the system.

All Suicide stuff has been tossed to the side, it was a "phase" I guess? or so she says. Her words, " There's no point in it, it doesnt do anything for me." Crazy right?

So the CPS crew came in on the last day, brought her a cake, ice cream and a gamestop gift card for $52 bucks to say congrats for Graduating the course. Fucked up right? In 2018 you can call CPS on your family, drag them through hell and get rewarded for it. I know in principle they are celebrating that she is no longer self harming. But fuck, what about my other kids? Emily, Zoey and even baby Harley went through all this anger, emotions, strangers in our home everyday, What do they get? A bucket full of negative feelings thats what.

Lily turned 16 at the end of the month, the day after we got her a job at our local Wendys. Shes been working at least 5 days a week since. The morale of the house is still pretty rough when shes home. Her sisters are just kinda done with her.

We went to San Diego Comic Con, It was a blast! First family trip we've taken since December of that caliber. It went really well except for Lilys 2 meltdowns. One I handled and told her enough is enough, second one I was at comic con and I guess she admitted to her mom and sisters her big plan to get free stuff this last year. Since she said that to Emma and Zo they have just been done with Lily, they get along for the peace of the house but I can see it, The sister bonds they had have been severely damaged. I hope when Lily grows up some she can start on a path of healing relationships but I'm not sure if she'll be motivated enough to do it unless she needs something from them.

But I am hoping this is the last time I really have to write down all this garbage about her, Going to be keeping her busy, She has to maintain her job, School, piano and her personal life now. This is what she caused chaos for, if she strays from that she can deal with the consequences like an adult. She breaks the law the law can have her. She is no loinger on our Free to play plan here at home. She wanted to be an adult so bad at our cost now she has to work for everything she wants. We got her products from the dollar store, no more premium soaps, girly stuff, clothes etc. Shes working to buy her own shit, Wants fast food, shes gotta buy her own, Wants to go into an amusement park with us, has to buy her own tickets, She has her own cell now cuz she pays for it.

On to positive vibes: School starts back up for us in the next week. Besides for all that negative stuff I wrote, The kids are doing very well, They are excited, We are going to take a family trip coming up in October, I told my wife we cant keep doing this no vacations dont go anywhere stuff anymore. We are free from that negativity and its time to travel and have fun again. So the kids are going trick or treating in Disneyland! Mrs Vaz is already back at work, she did the bare minimum of Maternity leave. So its just me and all 4 of our kiddos most of the time. Even now Harley is making me type this with one hand, shes a snuggler. If shes being held shes happy. She gives me mad stink eye if I dont pick her up. Ill post a pic with this in Discord.

Life with the kiddos is amazing, it does get adult lonely though, I miss hanging with you guys so much, As for gaming, most of the games im playing are really slow or let me pause for the kids. Just plated Sims 4, been playing that since Harley came home. Lots of ipad gaming and even busted out my Vita and started Persona 4 golden. Whats everyone playing?

Harleys getting fussy and gotta take Emma to Violin, I wanted to add much more but dad life calls.

Miss your faces.

Hope to catch up with you soon

Matt(Vazio)