Long overdue Update June 2018

Sorry that its been a few months since I have sat down at my PC and typed things out to catch everyone up.

A lot has gone on, but the hardest part for me is even sitting down at my streaming station, Its like a big scar collecting dust. Brings up a lot of emotions of how much fun I had sitting there daily doing the Stream Dream thing. I took down the green screen a few months ago as well, the bright green screamed to me every time I passed by, So I hung up posters and stuff instead trying to give it that hang out zone feel. But truth it still just makes me sad/mad. Its something I want to be doing but I'm forced to watch a 15 year old spoiled brat.

Lily's case has been a roller coaster as we dive into why she does things, We talk about Lily 6 days a week, even as some of the people have continued to call in sick someone still calls once a day to see what shes done. It's been a maddening experience for everyone else in the family. To add earlier in May some major breakthroughs were made that realistically just pissed everyone off to the max. Lily is no longer on medication. We have discovered that there is no medical condition Lily belongs to. In short shes just a selfish asshole. Yup I said it. The Suicide phase..was a tactic to get what she wanted. It made the world stop and look at her and gave her the tools to have everyone do what she wanted and to reap rewards shes unwilling to earn. Think I'm being an angry ass that's fine, These are her words I'm typing. She has opened up in therapy and had many anger bursts saying she doesn't want all this to happen anymore because now it's interfereing with her life and what she wants to do. So shes yelling at the people shes forced into our lives because 6 days a week is too much for her. This process started when the group switched phases and stopped taking her out to eat, getting her star bucks and bringing her activities to do. When the presents and rainbows stopped she no longer wanted this.

This last Friday we had a large meeting with all the parts of CPS present to combat and start to refuse the services. Our original agreement was we went through this till the end of July Maximum. CPS wants to extend this horrible process because the CPS worker "feels" uncomfortable walking away from us. I asked her what her level of education was on mental health. She said none. I verbally expressed that I am not comfortable with a bunch of CPS soccer moms forcing their feelings on my family and I am done. I told her Investigate away. Arrest me, do whatever she FEELS she needs to do but to make sure she does it right because after I get out of jail I could use a fancy vacation that CPS will be paying for as I take this to court to show how wrongly we have been treated based on feelings alone.

Luckily the conversation's hostility was halted by the professionals that have been in our house 6 days a week. They defended my family, gave all of the evidence and proof to support my claims and now CPS has to go talk with her "team" to finalize leaving us alone. Tomorrow at 10 in the morning CPS is picking Lily up to question her alone to make sure she wasnt forced to admit that shes a giant selfish turd. That'll be interesting but I am hoping this nightmare's conclusion is on the horizon. My wife and I took Lily out for an adventure yesterday and had her gather Job applications for everywhere in town that hires a 15 year old.

Our plan is to make her ass grow up, no more handouts for this kid. She wants something, work for it. She wants to tell CPS make believe stories how bad we are, they can take care of her. I still cant explain the horror/sadness/anger/poopdedoop of emotions everyone is feeling to it finally just being the truth, We went through all of this because she did not want to deal with the consequences of her actions. She wanted to force her family to bend to her will at any cost. 2018 eh? WTF?!

So Vaz what does this all mean for the future?! I dont want to get my hopes up too much until everything is set in stone. There is no telling that CPS will make this exit a simple thing. It may end up in court, Or whatever they want to do. But at this point we are prepared to do whatever it takes to combat CPS and Lily. She created this divide over petty items, she can deal with the consequences. If it requires lawyers, Divorce, whatever else we gotta do on paper to end this, we are going to do so to get our lives back.

I tell you what this whole stupid process has opened my eyes up to American freedoms. Your free until someone doesnt "feel" you should be anymore thats for sure. I cant parent my children because some uneducated stranger doesn't like how we do things.

Now that the awful rant toxic stuff is out there. On to the positives and happy vibes that we got going on.

Baby is due within the next month, maybe the first week of July depending on when they schedule the C-section. We find out this week! If I havnt already announced its another girl! I seem to be a girl making factory. We have her area all set up already, Crib, changing table all that built and set up, car seat to bring her home in all that. So we are excited. Def the last one we are having though.

Emily and ZoZo are out of school in 2 weeks, they are doing amazeballs in school, I was so worried about teaching Zo Kindergarten but turns out shes right where she needs to be in math and is ahead of where she needs to be in reading and writing. That felt like a big ass win! Teaching a kid how to read and writes one of the coolest things I have ever done.

On my spare time I have been trying to play games and get caught up on my backlog. I beat Final Fantasy 9 finally, Thanks to Wicked I got to 100% God of War and now I just started Ni no kuni 2. Ive been working on several other games on the side just to clear out my backlog but it feels endless. I almost bought Farcry 5 and AC:Origins on Targets sale today but I was like I gotta stop! I gotta catch up what I have already...then I bought Yakuza Kawimi iand a year of xbox live instead...Whats wrong with me! lol

Even with all that negative stuff infecting our lives I've been doing what I can to keep the happy vibes going. The kids and I have been watching One piece. we are almost to episode 300, We have been enjoying board games, Learning Dungeons and Dragons, Playing Video games together, building model kits and I built them a playpark in the backyard! One of the manliest things I've ever done, All 3 girls and myself but together this big ass wooden park for them to play on, Multiple slides, swings, playhouse they whole chalupa. When schools done Im putting a pool out for them, Hey due to circumstances its hard to take them all out, so I built the fun for them here. Its awesome to see them want to go outside daily and play now. Around the 11th I am going to rip up our dead front yard and make it a water less front yard. In the summer it just dies off anyway. I've been trying to keep busy with projects like that and get the kids all together to minimize the anger and negative feelings our 15 year old derpy doo likes to share.

I don't want to spread worry, what we are going through sucks, cant deny that but! it could be worse. We have our health, our family, amazing friends like you all, as long as we all survive and none of us get crucified on social media and arrested we should be good. :)

Today I even reopened up my Extra Life account! the kids and I at this time cant do a lot with Twitch and all that but I was thinking maybe we could make little you tube videos or other fun things when we meet goals and just try to bring some of that fun back. any ideas let me know!

https://www.extra-life.org/index.cfm?fuseaction=donorDrive.participant&participantID=310669

Now enough about all me, How have you been? How has life been treating you? You still dabbing in the stream life? What games is everyone up to? Hit me up in the Discord and I'll get back asap!

I hope all is well, I am sorry for being so distant. I look forward to chatting with you all. I mainly play on my PS4 and Xbox now if you ever want to join me in some whatever. I just cant use a headset until this legal mumbojumbos not evaluating my every move.

Much Love;

Matt (Vazio)