Streaming life on hold (Answers Within)

The Last few weeks have been an emotional roller coaster here in Casa De' Vazio. Our oldest daughter has been struggling with with some Mental issues. About 2 weeks ago we stopped her from attempting some self harm. After questioned why she would want to do this to herself she ran out of our home and Ran away. She was missing for a little over an hour while we and local law enforcement searched for her. Luckily she found her way to a fire station, we all found her but her behavior was unsafe so she was taken to a local hospital for evaluation. The evaluation came back that it would be in her best interest to be taken to a facility and gain the treatment she needs. While going through the treatment, Child Protection Services is now involved. They have come into my home, they have made sure my other children are safe, we have been questioned and examined. Happy that they found nothing to be concerned with but the process is still heart-wrenching, Terrible and down right disgusting. I am grateful that there are processes to keep children safe but did you know CPS does everything in their power to protect children from adults but has nothing in place to help protect children from other children?

Once it was established that the oldest is a threat our options are: 1. Wait until she hurts herself or someone else. 2. Separate our family (send younger two elsewhere with a parent or grandparent) 3. Don't pick her up from the mental institute when ready and get charged with Child abandonment (no fucking clue why this is even an option) 4. Therapy, lots on Therapy, Therapy for everyone!

So as you can imagine its a stress mess here while we try to find a solution. As is She is due to come home any day now. The holidays have made things even more difficult due to medical staff not returning calls and of course taking time off to be with family.

What does this mean for streaming. Right now I have to put it all on hold. Do I want to? Fuck no, I've poured my heart into this for the last 2 years +. Do I Need to YES. My family needs me. I have been spending all of my time with the younger two keeping them occupied, keeping the happy alive, and just being there for them. When the oldest comes home I have been instructed to keep an eye on her at all times. I am to be her warden. Shes not to be left alone. As you can imagine for everyone's safety that means me, right in the middle of it. making sure there's no self harm or harm towards anyone else. It sucks ass. I will still play video games of course, but due to the sensitive nature of whats going on in the home streaming is not an option.

I will be closing down Patreon and Gamewisp for the time being. For everyone who supports through those platforms I thank you so very much. I am not comfortable accepting subscriptions and support when I am not creating content. Sub streaks, and all those perks will not be effected by this decision. I have the days everyone subbed for the first time written down. For those who sub through Twitch I completely understand and encourage waiting to resub until I can return to streaming.

I wont lie, I am in no mindset to even be able to turn on the camera and pretend everything is ok, I know in the past we have seen and had some unfun streams due to emotional times, I do not want to create a toxic/sad stream times.

Once things have settled down and we have plans in place to gain more help for our oldest I will be rushing back to stream as soon as possible. Wife and I have already discussed the possibility of me streaming when she gets home so there's always adult eyes on our situation.

I'll still be a message away Via Discord. We will be doing everything in our power to make sure she gets the right Medical care that she needs, we are not ones to shower her with prayers and thoughts, we are enlisting the help of the best professionals we can find.

I will miss hanging with you guys daily but will try to find time to come hang with those of you who stream or maybe play a game or two with you guys when I can. I know I'm forgetting to add something to this post lol.

Love your faces and talk to you soon.

Vazio (Matt)