OverMax

Behind the scenes of every streamer is a story. There is a person going through an infinite number of things.

Some streamers are an open book, heck you can instagram them and see whats the meal plan for the day. Others will tell ya anything if you ask, but would share the stress stuff cuz well that's no fun.

One thing we all have to be careful for is not to max ourselves out. This is a lesson that's a work in progress for me.

As some know my work on growing the stream is something very important to me, I love what I do, I hate missing days, I constantly want to improve. I don't want to fade away. All this is incredibly difficult being a stay at home dad, that handles everything but $$$.

Well on Monday (Halloween) 2 days before my wife's surgery I experienced something terrifying that I have never experienced before. Full grade Stress attack.

My kids and I were just going for a power walk to drop off my wife's prescription, about a 15 min walk to the pharmacy, Walk there no problem at all, we head home, once on my street I start to notice more sweat and fatigue than normal. I pass it off as meh I gotta get healthier and soon. Next i feel discomfort in my chest. All i know is I need to get home and get some water.

We get home I sit, and relax till its time to get ready for Halloween, everyone is running around, i'm finding pieces to costumes, by my bed I slump over, now I'm lightheaded, my chest dont feel right, uh oh this is'nt good?! I'm only in my 30s I cant be having a heart attack right? Oh no what If I am, my thoughts make it all worse cus now I feel weak and sweating like crazy.

Its just me and the kids! Oh man I cant chance this, so I call my mom for back up, ask her to come hang with the kids while I make sure I'm Ok. Mom shows up we grab everyone she drops me off at the hospital. I walk in tell them chest discomfort. Instant bed. EKG. Turns out hearts Ok.

^ actual pic I sent the kids to show them I was OK.

After a bunch of tests, turns out everything looks great and they went straight to stress. Sad part is I don't even feel stressed or overloaded. But I guess my body does.

Point of sharing this is, I have to learn on how to manage my time better and not take on so much. I have to take better care of myself.

I hope by sharing that pushing yourself too much that one day your body can scream HEEEY STAHHP!! is even a possibility we can hopefully avoid this all together for you.

Seriously avoid this, I thought I was dying no lie. At least with a kidney stone it just hurt like a mofo (worst pain of my life still) but I knew I just needed to be fixed. This was don't go to sleep nightmare fuel.

Take care of yourself, maybe not stream every single game you play? Go outside for a nice picnic? Really I don't know but de-stress as much as possible and it doesn't need to be on cam. Streaming is not everything :)

I'll be working on this myself, lets take care of ourselves ok? So were all here together tomorrow and many days after that.

<3

Till next time